Your Thoughts

Slowly your heartbeats

And your mind speaks

What your soul seeks

Your lonely body just

Can't be relaxed

It needs the attention

Wants the affection

And strives for redemption

Of that perfect feeling

The one that's caused by

My sexual healing

Flashbacks of how

You road my dick

Up and down

Then there was the time

When you said

Your pussy was all mine

Cold sweats

Your eyes closed and tighten

I pulled your hair

As you started biting

The pillow and

Screamed my name

Relizing noone could ever

Do you the same

From behind you

I went so deep!

I took your breath away

You couldn't speak

My penetration, was exact

Your physique, so intact

Unbelievavble beauty!

Just wait, i'll be back. .

My Love

Let me explain baby

About what you make me feel

And how you have me

Deep in this forreal

I know I be stressing you

I know I make you cry

I know I hurt you alot

But let me explain why

Sometimes I be jealous

Sometimes I be scared

Sometimes I be mad

Sometimes losing you

Is what I mostly feared

Do you know why

I care for you so much

Do you know why

You mean so much

Do you know why

I love you so much

Do you know why

Why your so special

Because your my everything

Because you come first

Because your my wife

And because your my life

I live for you and your smile

I live for the look in your eyes

I live for your happiness

And I live just so you can know this

I want to be the reason

The reason you breathe

The reason you wake up everyday

The reason your heart pumps

And the reason you say the things you say

I know I let you down before

I know I hated you before

I know I disrespected you

I know I lied to you and more

I'm sorry for all them things

I'm sorry for the hurt I bring

I'm sorry for killing the love

I'm sorry for all that I've done

Baby I just want you to know

Know that your better than them

Know that its hard to understand

Know that your all I need in the end

And know that baby I am your man

My love for you will never go away

My love for you will never be a lie

My love for is here to stay

And my love for you will never die. .

This Is For You My Ex Love. .

Silenced

Sometimes I wonder

If I was to close my eyes

Would living my life

In total darkness

Be any much better

Than what it is now?

Just maybe,

All I can see

Is fake people infront of me

Smiles on there faces

And hate in there blood

Backstabbers..

All they can do

Is take as things come

Hate when theres love

And run from what they've done

Giving up is all they know

Trying hard, they never show

So fuck them I'm ready

Block out the sun

And bring on the darkness

Let me live my life

I'm alone regardless

Everything will be better

When my world is silenced. .

Died Inside

Sometimes there's things

Even music can't heal

And sometimes the cuts

Aren't deep enough to feel

So whats left for me then

Poetry.. my only friend

No beats or blades

No vibe or pain

To take my mind away

From this world

And into my own

Where its not so cold

But I'm stuck laying here in this bed

With all these thoughts filling my head

I write with the blood that pumps

From my weaken and abused heart

Every drop of blood tells

Another sad story

Of my life and how it dwells

Repeating it self everyday

That passes by

Poetry please save me

Why must I cry?

I can't take it anymore

I've died inside. .

Kleptomaniac O_O

I've stolen life from death

Happy from sad

Forgiveness from regret

Im lost in my mind

When the shadows shined

Ran away

When everything was fine

Now stuck in time

As life repeats

And heart beats

On the weakest line

Nearest to death? Yeah

Live your lie

Ill steal your faith

And kill your pride

Pick your brain

Poke your eyes

You cover your ears?

Ill rip your throat!

Make you wish

You never spoke!

You'd promise me?

Ill leave you broke

Alone, cold

And fucking smoked!

Burned to ashes

Yeah, dust to dust

Ill shatter your life

If I must

Steal the pieces

And claim my own

New life

A twilight zone

Klepto

Electric

Magnet

Flip me

And ill repel you

Faggot

Is it just me

Or I'm a little maniac

It fits me

Better than a fitted cap

I'm stealing your heart

Won't give it back

Hey I stole that too

Ha! Ha! Kleptomaniac. .

Pretty Strange

Short hair

Big head

So cool

Two beds

Laid back

Crazy laughs

Cute smiles

No ass

Dressing the way I like

With out having to try

Is what made you

Visible to my eye

So shy

Very ticklish

Artistic

Little bitchiness

Always biting

I bite back

And we're fighting

I like that

So high

We smoke

Rubber lips

Enough jokes

Fun times

We chill

Your eyes

They kill

Puppy

Brain

Juno

Lame

All names

Your pretty strange. .

Plastic Ring

We walk the skies

And people are starring

We ride the clouds

And they start caring

We make up words

When they're swearing

Like please klahblewiggity

Your disrespecting my Integrity

With all your stupidity

There's not enough squares

Their barely even a circle

The coolest guy I knew

Wasn't named steve urkle

I'm happy loving weed

Happy being free

Happy she's with me

And happy that she see's

Everything that I do

Awe now that's to idol

She's so hot

She can be a robot

Take my plastic ring

Its a twenty five cent thing

But it means more than

Everything else did

I don't believe in marriage

I don't believe in love

I don't believe in anything

That's in the three lines above

But I believe in you

And I believe in me

Show me that ring I gave you

I wanna see

Its so beautiful

But not as much as you

And those eyes

It takes me away for miles

And for a million more smiles

Something special for you and I

Purple plastic around your finger

Fuck my life!

When I'm not with her. .

Inside Your Eyes

Dead inside your eyes

Still waiting to come alive

I can feel it in my teeth

Dying for life

Coldness in my feet

Bound for defeat

Good ol' fashion nightmare

A head full of sadness

I laugh at sun sets

Before the moon divides the ocean

You must learn to see

Before opening your eyes

If so isn't achieved

You'll be blinded by lies

The answer to my silents

She's my sound

My feet never touched the ground

Whenever you were around

Felt like an angel

You were my heaven

But I was your devil

You hurt me like hell

Burning my soul

Putting fire through my heart

And then it was cold

My emotions ripped apart

You was gone

As fast as you came

I wouldn't be surprised

If you didn't know my name

Dead inside your eyes

Burning with lies

Rejecting words I speak

With your evil little smile. .

When She Looks

When she looks at me

I wonder what she see's

Am I all she needs

Or just another guy

Who cheats and leaves

Cold hearted lusting these

Feelings for her

Not knowing if its for sure

How would I know

Its just a blur

When I think of it

I don't know why

I don't just quit

But then only then

Would I look so fake

And the "lies"

Would now just take

Her away from me

How hurtful would that be

She paints a pretty picture

With such an ugly frame

Filling in all our emotions

And signs it with her name

So forever more

It'll remain the same. .

All I Ever See

All I'll ever see

Days pass and nights come

As thoughts begin to conquer

My mind soul and sprit

No choice but to flow with it

Missing the times spent together

Looking back on all the pleasure

Reminiscing as I listen to your voice

On my voice mail left by your choice

From the heart breaks to mistakes

On to the break ups to make ups

I can't think because I'm stuck

On stupid going on and on

I know sometimes you'd wish

I wasn't even born

But I'm here to stay

And to god I'd pray

That we'll make it to the end

Even if we were just friends

I'd still be happy to say

In any kind of way

That your the one for me

And in darkness

Your all I'll ever see.

Trapped

Trapped

I'm here, trapped with in

Your spell

And there's no escaping

From how I fell

For you and your ways

It had me thinking

Forever stuck in this daze

You'd have had to

Been planing this for sometime now

Because you've

Totally hacked my mind, but how?

How could this be

That you've claim to love thee

And much others besides me

When I'd just rather fly free

Away from your trickery

Into the sky where

I'd surely dissappear

Racing through the open air

Burning up in the sun

Which leaves scars so deep

Its to painful to run

I'll never sleep

Once I've begun

To escape

The faith brought upon me

That complicates

The life I hardly see

So what's left

After I've left everything behind

Just the thoughts

That dwells deep in my mind

Stuck in pitch black

No body, no heart, no soul

Just lost, eyes shut, ice cold

And I'm trapped!

Diary

Diary
Let those words leave your lips
Tell me everything that I've missed
All your problems and pains
I'll travel all through your vain's
I'll heal what's broken
As I follow the words you've spoken
Give me the map and key
So I can fulfill your every need
It doesn't matter how long it takes
I'll correct all the mistakes
Restart your broken heart
And reconnect every part
Fixing each emotion
With this love potion
Just so you can smile again
I promise the happiness won't ever end.

Myself

Myself
Slowly as I drift into a zone
Feeling so alone like dead cold bones
In a world full of darkness
And the people who left me heartless
Words for which I not speak,
Air that I shall not breathe
Left me with only voices that feed
Off the fear of another
Like salty tears to rainy weather
And the lost life of my brother
Whom was a stranger
Still apart of my life so
Its still hard to let go
Sometimes I just wish
I could end it all with this
Weapon of my choice
Being stopped by the little voice
That intertwines inside my mind
Making me go so crazy
But on the outside I'm just fine
So I just need to humble myself
Control but not stress myself
And realize that I only need myself..

Zombie Girl

Zombie Girl
My zombie love
We'll be as one forever more
I used tattoo's to substitute
The pain of razor blades
Patient zero
Aqua veins
Purple wearing blue lips gypsy
Empty vessel
With scabs of green
The color controlled
By money fiends
Skin dead ice
Colder than blue
If I kill you
You'd have died twice
The next death is mine
Ill pay that price
We'll share it together
To give you pleasure
Drain my blood
Help me transform
With your love
Ill be reborn
Free from life
Welcomed to death
Sounds so promising
No regret
The most beautiful of them all
The dead girl on my arm
Take my soul
Spare my heart
In this world
We'll never part
My zombie love
This is where we start. .

Away

Away

I can feel you moving away

It happens each second

Of each day

I thought it was just me

You know, so depressingly

I think of the worst

When ever I'm alone

You could say its a bad habit

But how could you have known

When its just another secret

Lost inside my mental zone

The coldest place ever

It'll get inside your bones

Weakening them, enable to crumble

Leaving a broken jaw that just mumbles

Less talks, no feeling to touch

And everything that didn't matter much

I'm invisible to your sights

Like shadows to sky nights

No attention given

Like a man with too much women

I'm only around for your needs

Until your happy and then leave

Like superman fights crime

He gets it over with in no time

Quick and fast

Then your up on the go

Each time my heart dies slow

Leaving me with no words left to say

Yes I feel you drifting so far away. .

Someone

Someone

In my dreams you used to be,

Now your locked away, I took the key

Its hard to speak for what I cant see

Darkest of shadows overwhelm me

So hard to breathe when I sleep

As the nightmares begin to creep

The devil walks by

Holds my neck then decides

To keep me there suffocating

Mean while my heart is racing

Blood is pumping hard enough

Mind is thinking other stuff

So it begun, spoken words

Shot out like bullets from a broken gun

Will I die? I can no longer run

Why cry? If its already done

Trapped here in an eternal rest

I cant fight the force against my chest

What to do? someone help!

No ones around to protect my health

And this goes on just until

Im about to give up on all my will

And then Im free suddenly

I wake up and stare

At what looked like a tree

As I gasp air

I looked around

still no one there

Im in my room on my bed

I lay back to rest my head

when will their be someone here

someone who really cares

someone who will be there

someone to fight my fears. .

Lucky Pen

Lucky pen
I tried to write my name
In the sky upon cloud
But my finger just went
Up, through and around
I tried to jump into a puddle
But my feet couldn't plummet
Even when I stood suttle
I tried eating paste
when I was little
I couldn't stand the taste
Other kids thought I was mental
I tried to be a power ranger
But I never transformed
I didn't have the pleasure
I caught them all
I did better than ash
But these poke'mon
Really sucked ass
I tried to fly
With my blanket as a cape
I just fell to the floor
No sweet escape
I crossed them over all the time
But they stole the ball every time
I ran for touch down
As fast as I could
But I got tackled
I got hurt real good
I knew a few tricks on my bike
popped a wheelie all night
I skated morning til'
Oly'd over everything
I tried writing on that cloud again
But I just ended up
with my paper and lucky pen. .

Robotic Man

Robotic man

He looks as normal as

Any other human has

The functions that

Any human is known to have

But inside is where its different

Some things are so wrong

And not as efficient

As its suppose to be

But take a look inside

There's nothing to see

Just a hollowed out body

Dark and empty

No emotions around

No soul to surround

Just this guy here

With a permanent frown

A very cold stare

And a mind that could drown

The whole world in its depths

Of painful concepts

And dissappear

Without making any foot steps

And there he would go

Off to show the sky

What you couldn't understand

To ever over stand

About this robotic man. .

Was a Lie

Was a lie

When the world stands still

And then time freezes

I hear my heart beat

As my blood races

Rushing through me

Up into my brain

Causing my head to suffer

A tremendous amount of pain

Vision becomes blur

Limbs feeling weak

Breathing hard and slower

Stumbling off my feet

Laying here lifeless

Helpless to revive

Hard to tell, if I'm still alive

Slowly trying to find

The life left in me

My soul decides

My heart subsides

My mind implies

My body dies

And no tears left to cry

All because love was a lie..