Friday, February 19, 2010


All the stress that I'm going through,
has all been released into.
Sweet pain and it feels so nice,
each time I cut my self with this dreadful knife.

The blood drips down on to the floor,
each drop holds a problem I don't have anymore.
I feel so relaxed after the knife rips,
right through my skin leaving it like open lips.
Spitting out the toxic blood of hate,
it feels so right this can't be a mistake.
Laying back on my bed to close my eyes,
as the blood flows out I feel an up rise.
No more stress as the pain takes over,
I couldn't have took the stress much longer.
All this stress that I'm going through,
has all been released into.
This beautiful pain that's so terrific,
I'm a cutter no need to be specific.
Stitch me up let me heal,
seal out the hurt that I hated to feel.
I couldn't deal,
but it was real.
The blood,
The knife,
The tears,
Lonely nights.
I'm over it this is me,
I can't help but dig in deep.
Ripping flesh and loosing blood,
scared of what I've become.
But that was then and this is now,
then was yesterday but I'm ok now.
I think. .
while I'm here cleaning the sink.
Hiding this thing that I've done,
cleaning my knife off before I head in the tub.
I'm not proud but what can I say to make this better,
I'm escaping my stress as a happy cutter. .

Thursday, February 11, 2010

Happy Valentine's Day

If my heart could sing
You would be its favorite song
All night
And all day long
You would play
Like a repeated mp3
On a loved charged battery.
That's how it used to be
Back when you was there for me
By my side, you cared
Now your gone, I'm scared.

To be alone
To have lost you
Remember the rose?
I renounced to you
Walking by
Caught my eye
I knew it was
A special sign
It stood out of the dead few
I picked it just for you
It was beautiful times two

The smile you gave was priceless boo
I couldn't afford it if I tried to.
I wonder now
How are you?
Did things change?
I'd like to find you.
Are you alone?
Or are you happy?
Are you better off
In a life without me?

I wish I could tell
I don't want to think the worst
Maybe your alright
Maybe I wasn't your first
Crush that you lust
Yeah we had something special trust.
Where did it all go though?
Was it my fault?
Did I not do everything you asked
Was it that one night?
Could we go back
And do it again
I promise you
All my time I would spend
With you
Would be a special trend
Day in and day out
You would comprehend
My love for you
Is much more than times ten
I'd name the day after you
A whole day for you to be happy boo
Every February 14
We would celebrate
Slowly read the words I say
Cause I love you, today is yours
So happy valentine's day
Give me back what I've lost. .

Thursday, February 4, 2010

In The Rain

The sky is getting cloudy and darker,
no wind is blowing and it kind but uh.
Cool outside and I'm with you girl,
on this bench viewing the world.
I feel a drop of water on my arm,
its about to rain but hey its no harm.
I know your freaky so thoughts are coming to my head,
so much things we can do even without a bed.
It starts to drizzle and then it pours,
but I look at you and your all wet damn what more.
Could I ask for girl but you,
I guess its time to make some dreams come true.

You get on top of me kissing on my neck sucking on my lips,
while I just enjoy it and hold your hips.
Running my hands all over you beautiful body,
thank god everyone's inside so there's nobody.
Outside watching us make love,
I rip your shirt off and watch as your breast hung above.
I slowly licked your hard nipples and soft breast,
as the rain water ran off your chest.
Your moans drives me while turning me on,
I slowly took my dick out so you could hop on.
But before you did you took off my shirt then,
licking me from my neck down to my friend.
Sucking on me nice and slow as I laid back,
on the bench as I react.
To the good sensation of your tongue on my manhood,
made it so hard and straight like a big piece of wood.
I guess this was a special treatment or something,
but for what hm I had nothing.
Oh my god it felt so good with the addition of the rain,
this can drive any man insane.
she stops before I came,
and told me "baby make me scream your name".
I took off her pants and laid her down,
and slowly went from her chest down.
But as soon I could even lick her,
she stopped me and said no she want me in her.
I didn't bother to fight her choice,
I just listen and followed the directions of her sweet voice.

I slide in her warm thick and wet insides,
at the same time I closed my eyes.
So there we were making sweet love in the rain,
what could be more better than to drain.
All of my energy into this girl in front of me,
that I could tell really wanted to see.
What I had in me so I gave her my all,
her legs warped around me as the rain falls.
Our two wet bodies soaking,
but we're still going no lie I'm not even joking.
Each stroke I made inside of this beautiful lady,
made me feel a way that maybe.
I would never feel again,
but then again this never had to end.
We switch and she's on top riding me so damn good,
blowing my mind I wish she could.
Feel what she's doing to me,
up and down grinding on me.
Oh shit I feel it now I'm about to cum,
she's screaming my name I'm feeling her juices run.
Down on to my dick its so warm,
her legs shaking and her mind gone.
Her eyes rolls back as she loses control,
going so fast I nutted and my body squirm.
Under her damn I'm worn out,
she stops and drops on me laid out.
She kissed me as it slowly stops to rain,
my heart is pumping I could feel it in my veins.
We get dress and lay back on the bench and look,
to the sky as the sun came out and took.
All the darkness away,
it felt kind ah good in a way.
A feeling that made their no such word as pain,
only a special experience in the rain. .