Saturday, November 28, 2009


Heart broken out spoken taken for a fool,
used abused treated as ah tool.
A scared soul left alone to die,
covered with darkness unable to make it to the sky.
How to survive in this life,
when your heart has been sacrifice.
For someone else's joy of needs,
unbelievable sadness that makes me bleed.
Out the pain from my now cold dead heart,
that you have painfully ripped apart.
Piece by piece making me suffer so much,
as you wait to add the finishing touch.
That will end it all in one big kah boom,
leaving my body lifeless in a very small room.
Yea my coffin is where you want me to be,
as you look through those killing eyes you see.
The awesome work you have done,
feeling completed you have won.
I am dead and gone from this world,
all because of you manipulative girl. .

Saturday, November 21, 2009


Laid up in this room
Naked skin, the dark consumes
To hard to see what hides
Purplish colors form before my eyes
Changing shapes and locations
As they rip from mutation
Finally closing my eyes
Fallen to the calling
Of the sleep I despised
A rush of blood
And a raising heart rate
Just to much to anticipate
These creatures, this place
What a scary looking face
Everything here is just so
Not what I'm used to but even though
It all seems familiar
In some kind of way
This place here, I can't not stay
It feels like forever inside a day
Trapped? I dear not say
A way out is the only option
But how to escape my adoption
Into this world of humans
And ordinary people
Of feelings and emotions
Life or death?
And the sad thoughts I regret
A blinding light
And now I'm back in my room
The darkness is gone
But visions still loom. .

Sunday, November 15, 2009

Beauty Of A Woman

The beauty of a woman
Is not in the clothes she wears
The figure she carries
Or the way she combs her hair.
The beauty of a woman
Must be seen from her eyes
Because that is the doorway to her heart;
The place where love resides.
The beauty of a woman
Is not in a facial mole
But true beauty in a woman
Is reflected in her soul.
The caring that she lovingly gives.
The passion that she shows.
The beauty of a woman
With passing years only GROWS.
The beauty of a woman
Is not in the clothes she wears
The figure she carries
Or the way she combs her hair.
The beauty of a woman
Must be seen from her eyes
Because that is the doorway to her heart;
The place where love resides.
The beauty of a woman
Is not in a facial mole
But true beauty in a woman
Is reflected in her soul.
The caring that she lovingly gives.
The passion that she shows.
The beauty of a woman
With passing years only GROWS. .

Wednesday, November 11, 2009


Endless nights
Awake and confused
Laying here
Mentally abused
I think the thoughts
Has taken me away
From what's really
Making me stray
From my sleep
And restful nights
Should I speak
On what might
Just make you look at me
In a way you wouldn't
Want to see
But what do I care
If you thought that I'd bare
With the ideas
Of you human nightmares
Flashing back to the time
Of when I could only cry
Before I was who I am
Before I could barely stand
To face my pain
And the hurt
Yes I remember
Even the cuts
The razors
The knifes
The questions
The wonders
The why's
Blood running down
Dripping to the ground
Ripping my skin
Until I finally gave in
Closed my eyes
In a sense of relief
Passing out in a deep
Unconches state of mind
An on going saga
I felt would never die
Deep breaths
"Yo open your eyes"
My ex screamed
As she frustratedly cried
Held me up
Bloody and all
Laying here
Against my bedroom wall
This wasn't the first time
Nor the worst time
Just another night
In this fucking world
"Kill me now"
I sweared and curled
Up in bed eyes open
Body dead
Thinking still
As it lead
Back to
The blood shed
Hospital bed
My girl left me
Is what letter read
Fuck her I guess
So young and troubled
Stitched up and leveled
Back to my bed
Once again
What to do
How to win?
Years later
The cuts disappear
Behind the tattoos
That are now art
A cover up was just the start
Now I'm addicted to the pain
I've finally replaced my knife
May have saved my life
Still can't sleep
But the weed helps keep
My mind off the strain
Of my Insomniac brain.

Tuesday, November 10, 2009

Special Day

This is your special day baby
Its time to bring the freak out the lady
Lay down don't worry i'll do everything
I'll undress you slowly close your eyes
And let me do my thing
Running my fingers over your soft skin
I feel your body temperature rising
As I kiss you I take my time
To look deep with in your eyes
I move down slowly biting your bottom lip
Towards your neck licking slowly as I hit
Your spot making you moan a little
I move down to your nipples
Sucking and licking them as I squeeze 'em
You look down at me as I leave them
You feel my dick getting harder and longer
between your legs
I move up on you and spread your legs
Feeling the wetness from your pussy
As I rubbed my dick on your clit
You got excited each time I moved it
I started to slide my dick between your pussy lips
As soon as I got in and felt the warmness
All I could say was oh goodness
I started off slow with each blow
You grabbed on to me and didn't let go
In and out grinding when I got deep
Making your toes curl as you grab the sheets
I speeded up with your legs in the air
Fucking that pussy good
I wouldn't dear hurt you even if I could
The pleasure is all mine baby
Your screaming my name crazy
You hop on me for a ride
Oh how it feels so good inside
Of you I pick you up to show you a thing or two
Holding you up in the air pounding your pussy boo
You screaming "baby i'm cuming i'm cuming"
Then all your juices start to running
All over my dick dripping to the floor
But all your thinking is "I want more"
I put down and make you grab them ankles
Doggy style baby you calling me daddy
I'm fucking you good slapping your ass
Making it shake I got you cuming again
In out in I don't wana leave its so warm
I'm not giving you no time 2 breathe
Back on the bed your legs around me
I slow it down so we can enjoy thee
Last few seconds of this sensational pleasure
I'm about to cum I go deep to reach
Your climax your legs shaking pussy dripping
Out of breath bodies weak can't really speak
Time moves so slow as I begin to cum
I kiss you as I lay on top of you I'm finally done
I whisper in your ear "I hope you enjoyed"
You close your eyes and your off to sleep
I could tell you was to weak to speak
I closed my eyes and smiled
Your special day has arrived. .

Thursday, November 5, 2009

Hate Love

Feeling the arrival of my past once more,
creeping up on me slowly ready to take over my hearts core.
Flashbacks of the pain inflected,
wounds reopen and the blood is no longer restricted.
The tears that leaks from my eyes,
is no help no matter how much I cry.
I remember the sharp razors that helped release pain,
and how they grew into knifes when matters was insane.
Over time the cuts would heal,
but they could never be compared to the rapid penetration my heart feels.
Each and every time I'm left with my heart ripped,
I'm broken and speechless no words can leave my lips.
Silencing myself only hearing my breathing,
moving slower until I pass out from the bleeding.
Now lost in my mind,
in a place I call darkness where I spend most of my time.
So sometimes when I'm here cold and alone,
I smile because I'm away from the world.
This is the after affects of a feeling so great brought from above,
one day I'll learn not to hate love. .


In deep thought is where I realize,
in a world like this there's no surprise.
I'm in a world filled with people who are as I say ungrateful,
for the lives they live very mistake full.
Not accepting what they already have by wanting more,
thinking it will bring happiness right through the door.
But its not that easy you see,
all they do is hurt each other with there needs.
Like crabs in a bucket they bring each other down,
but when in need of help no ones around.
No support or some kind of super hero coming to the rescue,
because your friends will have already left you.
Its hard enough surviving in this cold world,
but to live it with everyone's lies is just to much to hold.
I'm trying to maintain all these reckless thoughts in my brain,
alongside all of the stressful complains.
Is like a war with no end,
it just keeps going and going until I'm unable to comprehend.
uncompleted distracted and abandoned,
defeated unexpected and left empty handed.
Is what would be left of me,
if I gave up on life so easily.
I live in such a cold world,
I'm just afraid that one day I will wake up all alone.

A Dream Girl

I never thought I'd find a girl like you,
damn your a dream come true.
I love it how your always there,
by my side you'd show you care.
Every word that escaped your lips would make me feel,
so great inside any pain would heal.
Your not like those other girls,
your special god only made one of you in this world.
When you kiss me I get butterflys in my tummy,
oh how it feels so funny.
I'm in love with you baby,
I'm so glad that your my lady.
We have this connection that can't be broken,
like a chain of words that was spoken.
I can look deep within your eyes,
and see our love traveling for miles.
On a road with no end,
I'm glad we're more than just friends.
You have this affect on my mind body and soul,
that's letting my hearts love unfold.
I never knew of a feeling so great,
that would make me forget all my mistakes.
Of being with those girls in my past,
gosh your even better than my last.
This is the best feeling in the world,
its to bad I woke up because you was just a dream girl. .

Monday, November 2, 2009

Heal Of The Nation

I could feel my eyes getting lower
As my body had gotten lighter
When time began to move slower
The room was now quieter
My mind and body now at ease
My soul and spirit roamed so free
Through the air however they pleased
As if they were stuck in a slow motion speed
There wasn't a single person that I needed
At this point I was definitely conceited
No problems, no issues, no stress
I could finally feel my heart at rest.
Just like water reflects a face
So does a heart reflect the man
That's something people don't understand.
It felt as if the world was off my shoulders
Nothing could hold me back
I felt much stronger

Didn't need to react
I wanted this feeling to go on longer.
Before I had to force a smile
I was so good no one could tell my lie
But now I'm having a good old time
Laughing so hard there were tears, I cried
My mind wondered off here and there
Into different places and other things
My mind didn't care.
Then after when I went back to normal
And everything was done
I took my last pull
Of this pain relieving bud
I was now missing the sensation
From the heal of the nation. .


The feelings we leave deep down
Are left inside to die
Slowly as the depression drowns
My heart beings to subside
Taking over by pain
Affected me deadly
My soul is left drain
Weaken from the hurt
Of a unforgettable past
Which gave me the judgment
That happiness wouldn't last
What if I loved no one
Would I be better off?
Or to love someone
And have that love lost?
Answers never given
To the questions always asked
Confusion is what I live in
Hidden behind an invisible mask
I was told once before
You can be a creator or a victim
And to choose carefully with them
I'm thee creator
And your my creation
A critical example
Of perfection
If I'm the mistake
Your my correction. .