Monday, March 22, 2010

Thoughts

Lonely nights again
I'm rolled up, smoke
Yeah, high again
Drug movements
I'm not addicted
I just like the way it feels
When I'm lifted
And then I think of you
And how happy you make me
And all the times you say you hate me

Each pull brought a thought
To a fragmentation of some sort
So much talent trapped inside
I wanna share what I must hide
My mind my soul my ability
To let my expressions free
To run while loose in the air
But like the smoke from this blunt
It will disappear

Forgotten, no
But who will care
No ears to hear
No one there
Nothing to be upset about
So I sit here by my window
Every night just to look out
At the world beyond it
Wondering why I'm still on it

I wish to fly
I wish the sky
Could be my ride
I saw a star
Above a car
And so I smiled
I don't know why
But it caught my eye
So I tried
To embrace it in every way I could
And the night went on
As any other would

But this is just my thoughts
What does it matter anyway
What's so different
Its just as any other day
Night after night
Same old thing
I got to better my self
And grow my wings
I hope you understand my words
Cause I can't really sing
To my last pull I think of you
Laying in my highness resting
If only you could be here

But my wishes never come true. .

Wednesday, March 10, 2010

Voice of a broken heart

Listen to me as I speak
For once bare with me
I'm still a little weak

Silence. .
I am a power source
Found with in this vessel
Of a broken man

As I beat
I give off life
With every pulse
To every finger in a hand

Pulling together
Every muscle, every bone
Every vein with in this man
I stay
strong
I motivate
I keep going
I intake
I feed off
Negative and positive
Energies
Brought from the fight
Of this mans enemies
I've felt what they've done to him

Surprised that he hasn't
Used this gun kill
Girl after girl
They come and go

Leaving with a piece of me
Destroying my fucking world
Why oh
why ?
W
ow !
That shit hurts
Wish I could be emotionless
Sorry didn't mean to curse

Its dark in here
But I continue to shine
Giving this man hope
Stopping the tears he used to cry

A crack down the middle hasn't stopped me
Its made me stronger than an athlete
All the drugs that he's done
Hasn't slowed me down

I can move like neo
After reloaded now
I may be alone in this
But life is to short for forgiveness

I move him on to the next
Until happiness is found
I won't be a fool nor made a clown

This is my story
I hope you paid attention to the sound

Of my voice
But goodbye for now. .

Your Gone

I've hit rock bottom I'm done for,
I can't get back up on my feet to live anymore.
I've been hurt bad inflected with pain,
lost everything that has kept me sane.
All I have left is thoughts and memories,
that has also appeared in my dreams.
Having me thinking that every things okay,
but when I wake up in my bed alone is where I lay.
Because your not here with me to hold me,
your not here to help me see.
To help me feel that special feeling,
that I'm a sucker for and still I believe in.
It because you made it real,
able for me to really feel.
But now there's nothing left,
and I'm slowing down losing my breath.
Because the pains to much,
alone here without your touch.
Hurting now because your gone,
dying inside because my hearts torn. .