Tuesday, October 11, 2011

Heart First

I'm good at pretending,
Fooling myself along with others.
Almost believing the show I put on
Never wasting my moments,
From days that have gone
I've been making improvements.

The mind and soul heals
Pain that my heart wishes to ignore,
Cold blooded is how it feels
When all hopes become nomore.
Everyone wants in
And when they get it ?

Your just another who fell.
Heart first into a desired reality,
Replaying within your mind.
Waking up to morning shine,
But sleep alone all the time.
All this sorrow fills the bed,
Creeping up your spine.
You'll never be the same again,
But you pretend like lifes all fine.

Its really just dark and empty
Your missing deep inside,
It used to be warm and happy
Couldn't forget how to smile.
It was all I had
All I needed for a little while.
So when things got bad
I knew how to get on by.
Now its different
Cant tell the truth from a lie,
Stuck with second thoughts
Why do I live for these try's ?
When all I want is a final,
A definite you and I.

Moonlight lovers, tree huggers.
free in the air, playing in my hair.
No ” maybe someday's ”
Or blinds over are eye's,
I want our love to shine as clear
As the sun in those sky's.

Wednesday, June 22, 2011

Inside Out

Fighting for love
In my solitude,
Inner battles rage -
Need some peace to get a hold of,
Smiles floating all around my mood.
Soon the war will be over.

Love rising like tides beneath a moon.
This heart in me,
Has uncontrollable needs for you.
Follow your destiny and i will guide.
It just isn't fair to be so cold inside,
My poor love's already
Entangled deep in my pride.

Instructions with the love I send,
Teachings of the perfect blend.
So within the living flesh
That animates our bodily frame,
Laying your head on my chest
Allowing you to pump freely through my veins.

Corruption. . Depression !

The pain, that shortly followed.
A life crying out !
For a new beginning tomorrow.
And that, may never come.
Failing to realize how deep I'd fallen,
All decisions were being made
From deep within this organ.

At my weakest I gained the strength,
To put on a life I slowly bent
And soon broke free from.
All this time spent
Locked away in my mind,
Planning out my escape
Into a world not fully fine.

And would only belong to me
My special place.
Something only I could see,
My life at a better pace
Only way I'd want it to be.
It is not a race,
Because in the end there is just death.
You wouldn't wanna live a life,
You could easily forget.

Seemed to survived
With lost of regret,
Flashbacks of the lovely days
From back when we met.
I'll remember your lessons
Yes I've learned,
Forever scarred on my heart
Is you ! That girl. .

Sunday, May 1, 2011

Safe Sex ?

So lame and boring,
We engage malicious
I'm fucking your walls in.
Pounding out
Our rough aggression,
We make the most
Of every session.
Passion sets the bed on fire,
Every time the flames
Burn higher.
And I Melt deep,
Yes pushing all up inside ya'
Youth and beauty
May diminish,
But we’ll be ashes
When we’re finished.
Moans of pleasure
And guttural screams,
Getting our nuts
By what ever the means.
Point where your thighs meet
Why is it so potent?
Covered in diamond
Platinum drips,
Turbulent motion
Yeah girl, you working those hips.
I've reached the ocean
Setting it free,
Massive explosions,
Your cumming just for me.
High tidal waves, beautiful notions.
Low her sea floor
Holy body of water,
Pussy leaking more
I'm all up in it ..raw
Listening to the moans
Break from your jaw,
Riding down skin
Which you rip with your claws.
Drumming my ear with your tongue
Signing your name at the end,
Tattooed like the gun.
Inhaled deep
As my dick surfed your walls,
Consumed in your cum.
In my self defense
I had to let out one,
To call it all even
We're private part sprung.
This is just one of how many
Endless parts,
That has yet to begun. .

Your Love Changed Me

The things that used to be,
Are no longer a sight to see.
Do you know what you've did,
You hurt me,
Deep inside the casing of my ribs.
Enclosing my safekeeping's now,
Somewhere best well hid,
I'm just trying to relieve this
How ?
This pain, I must forbid.
Wasn't all bad though
There were good times,
They continuously died slow
Masked behind my awkward smiles.
I was comfortable , stupid
And so used to your love.
Advantages ..Taken
Then vanquished with your hugs,
And unforgettable sex.
This love brought a new
Whole being out of me,
You even had me thinking
So properly.
And focused on the bigger picture
Kids, moving away,
Even a ring on one of those little fingers.
I found my self
Lost and lonely without your presence,
Cause it was you only
Who I once shared my
Concentrated form of spiritual essence.
Night till day till another night
Together high,
Gas mask, bong, hooka, pipe
We had all the things to get our minds right.
Those memories will remain
All these things has made a change,
Never will get to see the day
You remove my name
But that's just skin
I linger forever deep inside your brain.
So what's missing ?
My innermost center of emotion,
Four chambers pumping devotion.
Sided left of my chest is the organ,
That has died and remains frozen.
The fact that I'm still alive,
Only proves that I lived, I survived
Through out all of your lies.
It still gets under my cells and skin,
Eating away at layers deep with in.
Why couldn't we have stopped this then
Maybe we really did need this “end”
Because now,
I can't even see you friend.
All we've been through
Our worlds were at war,
The years , I count two
But it seems like so much more.
Lessons learned, embedded to remember
I love and must forget you
My heart, can no longer be surrendered. .

Giant In The Sky

Look up!
That's where I'm at.
In these skies
Spacious and wide,
Smiles as my height
Towered over your eyes.
Shaping everything
Besides sunned outlined,
Self-luminous heavenly body
Providing the light that guides me.
Through the shading in your soul
Goddess of mine
Soon, I'll be taking you home.
If held any closer
On the other side of you,
I'd be.
Already thinking of a way
To get back inside of thee.
Rising oceans, waving seas
Rivers moving ever so silently.
Getting closer by all means,
Got gravitation on its knees.
All the space for all your needs,
Its my universe
So please have the tendency
To fall up into me.
And we'll descend in reverse,
Back up and away
From all that's cursed.
Its just you, I
And some uncontrollable smiles,
We've no worries in these skies. .

Wednesday, March 23, 2011

Unfamiliar Territory

Its not worth chewing through,
These straps are invisible.
No light, just sounds
Leading to my unhappy frowns.
Lost in thought,
Unfamiliar territory.
The world ..which floats in the sky,
Was now on a plummet
From my highs.
And surfacing to my lows.
Now that's an open mind,
I can feel the breeze flowing through me,
Eyes remain closed
Air seeping through my nose.
Hitting the ground
I Listen to my bones break
As they dance and shake,
Every feeling felt late
Bringing me down.
I hit the top of no bottom
Stuck circling the sun,
Long way from home
Gravity has won.
Not of their kind
Alien nor human,
Blanks which can't be filled
Even if I knew em'
Cursed by this planet
Unable to live free, yes happily.
I opened my eyes to
A short walk in the light of the world,
..Questioning mentally
Was this really meant for me ?

Sunday, March 6, 2011


Its a funny thing,
I've met you and my whole life changed.
A girl I thought couldn't have exist,
Appeared and now controls
My whole mind state.

I'm going through a lot,
Her and this someone
Who doesn't want to go away
Is making this what we would rather not
Have between us ..miner issues
That deceives us,
Arguments that leaves us
Upset after the fact that we've cussed.
Forgetting what's to be discuss,
But we wont let it lead us
Cause what we have exceeds lust.

A powerful feeling
That we both trust,
Feeling it in our tummy's
As our bones turn all gummy.
Nervous to say
What we are enduring,
But its all happy feelings
That's reassuring.
As we looked at each others smile
With no reasons why,
Just standing there
Shaking in our butterflies. .

Friday, January 21, 2011


Watering your feelings
With this love I possess,
And may it reach deep enough
To GROW that heart in your chest.

Let my mouth do the talking
As my tongue does the rest,
Sucking poisonous sorrow
Straight form its depths.
Freeing your veins
From its dry spell,
Unlocking your brain
From where it dwells.

Let these fingers soften the skin
That has been beaten
And bruised,
The healing must begin.
Cut off all of what has died,
Get back to the roots
And reach up towards the sky
Because all we'll ever need
Is for that sun to fucking shine.

As we grow
Our love will rise,
Bloom in to the air
As we pretend to fly.
Coloring with our love
Until Its not just you and I,
Soon one day
At some point and time
After nine months has gone by
Our love will have GROWN
Into a little child. .